Mixed Emotions

I think there are lots of activating things in this. There definitely is an energy of either defense (to defend him, because he will do this, this, and that) or resistance (to resist and prove why he MUST be a negative sign for humanity, because he will do this, this and that). There is so much innocent vulnerability in the roots of negative politics that evolves into the appearances of deep cynicism, hatred, sadness, fear, division; in the end, it is all the inner self in their innocence and childlike vision of, "Things should not be like this, humanity is not meant to be in such suffering and division." It's an expression of the knowledge that we are light and beautiful and pure positive energy by nature. Just filtered and experienced differently.

There is the natural desire to protect within a reality density that involves the experience of victim and victimizer, the lack of control, the lack of sovereignty or say-so. It is a very, you could say, thick and cloudy, easy-to-understand energy when beings like us go into these states of deep disempowerment that are so well substantiated by the experiences we have and what we're told. I want to hold space for this all. I want peace for this all.

In terms of the candidates themselves, I think it is definitely significant to acknowledge, without bias, the actions of war, denial, destruction, erasure, and what we in third density understand to be oppression --- are something that have been supported by leaders on "both sides". The "both sides" consciousness is something I think I could definitely do with letting go of myself hahaha. There is still the desire to neutrally acknowledge what the consequences of one person's actions will be vs. another person's actions, of course, that isn't a matter of division but instead discernment. Alongside that, I still see the desire to innocently defend what I feel denied of, what I feel I have not been able to experience due to absorbing the negative beliefs of others. What I experience as others, anyway.

I have these innocent expressions of the self attempting to find the closest thing to higher vibration, to greater empowerment. It isn't going to be TOTAL empowerment, because as beautiful beings like Abraham say: "If you expect yourself to jump over a house (vibrationally) rather than climbing the ladder and respecting your process/your journey, you will only invalidate where you stand even more rather than taking the step to climb up the ladder." I of course added onto that in my own voice, but nonetheless, it's true.

Humanity (meaning: me and the humanity I'm cocreating with you all hahaha, you can go on to make anything happen in your timelines :P) probably needs to experience the process of this healing until we realize we don't need a process anymore and we can go there because that is the level of integration we've reached. I love and respect the fact that yes, I am a sovereign soul choosing to be here and I know I can create anything. -And- I am choosing to create this experience, this process, this physical expression for positive reasons and therefore I'm respecting that I chose to have a journey for what uniquely it can offer. I chose to see how much I could be my light, loving, true self!! And I think we're all doing a great job :P. It's all up from here, ultimately <33.

To cap this all, it's really such an interesting thing to move beyond the limiting, disempowering beliefs that inherently need you to buy into them or you will no longer be valid or worthy of love within that paradigm (reflecting back to how we view others as well) --- WHILE also unconditionally validating and seeing the Source within the experiences we have in this paradigm. It behaves like the ultimate form of toxic relationship, you could say, for "needing you to suffer and commensurate with this energy or else you're not expressing real love". But it's not really that even, because from my pov it's just the part of you that feels unloved and unseen desiring to be felt, and loved, seen and validated.

We walk the interesting line of integration itself, in choosing not to commensurate with negativity while also not invalidating it. Because we understand we all contain the existence of negativity because we contain everything, and the only thing that changes is how we experience our relationship to it, either in an integrative and loving way or a matching of its many many many possible expressions!

And, I think that's a great distinction too. It's not just that we "contain negativity" in the sense we might think that. But, being that we are All That Is, we contain the EXISTENCE of it as an equal part of Creation to all positive and neutral expressions of Creation.

Thanks Mili for the chance to further reflect. I'm definitely going to continue integrating this until I feel always clear and lighter than a feather in the heart 💞