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How to Integrate Fear of Being Unsafe Outside (Trans Experience)
Hi all! :) so I'm transgender, at least that's one of the better words we have to convey my beautiful, multidimensional, Source-expressive experience of self. I've resonated with other words like genderfluid, genderqueer, but the feminine energy is just where my true home is, I can't feel anything except that fundamental source of feminine energy when connecting to my true self. That is, aside from the All-That-Is/Source energy that's all genders and all beings and all levels of existence at once, which I also feel :)).
My challenge is with feeling safe outdoors. I experience paranoia/fear of something happening to me as I, for instance, walk from my car to the store, or sit out to meditate in a park. Being attacked, accosted, harassed, victimized.
And on the level of my authentic self expression, if I were to dress in the clothing I prefer (feminine clothing) while living daily life,…
Hi Blaire:) I love you too. You too Dear Penny, I miss you both.
So, If I made the statement that you live in a safe universe would you find that hard to believe? Took me a while to get to that one.
After all, it appears that we are soft sensitive squishy and thrust into a world filled with sharp pointy things, fire, rocks, blasting radiation and countless other things not conducive to life, yet here we are. Just as easy to believe we are safe rather than not and if beliefs create the reality you experience...then.......
Also, look within for denials of yourself you may still be holding onto... they can be tricky as the tendency is to deny that they are even there, but they will show themselves if you ask them to. Fear not. They cover the deepest Love.
Until rather recently, I had a lot of fears surrounding my existence... some still rear their heads from time to time but those are the times to examine those particular ones.
I'd love to feel fearless, to be fearless for I know how crippling it can be to live in a neuotic state for I can litterally be afraid of anything if I choose to. Shadows? YIKES!!!
The less fear I have the better I feel, the less I feel compelled to ruminate over past hurts and dread an impending doom that never seems to arrive.
Fear, like anger can be a signal and a rush to align is how I'm looking at it now.
I still deal with fear but I'm looking at it differently.
So guys, I lost my Louise last week (well, I didn't really lose her at all, but that's another story) and a new crop of fears sprung up...so many things to fear from her safety to my sons wellbeing to "What will become of ME? Ahhh... day at atime, moment by moment, work through it and choose Love-Wisdom-Truth above all things. Release the fascination with hell based realities and rest in the arms of Love.
We are all safe.
Broadcast THAT my friends.
So, regarding the trans experience, kudos to you for exploring that. I admire you for your expression and willingness to be more of who you really are...but who you really are goes far beyond externals and any gender yes? Elan tells us we contain it all, I think he is right.
That said, I know you would find comfort and freedom in my company no matter how you are dressed and I know I'm not the only one who feels like that, so carry that with you as you walk down the street.