Two Earths

I painted this 30 years ago my first ET painting. Two Worlds. Although I now understand that there are more than 2 earths we are choosing our Earth at this time constantly shifting every second even though there are days, weeks months even years where I cried out for help why did I choose to remain asleep? Now I see what I painted 3d - 4d with access to 5D. At the time I painted this I was 27 years old this was taken in 1997 but I actually had painted this few years back. It is as if I was reminding myself to remember lets say leaving a painting behind well in my case a picture of it. I was fascinated with ET's , UFO's and the Universe. I painted Kokopelli playing his Flute held by the Grey's for I kept hearing that word the Grey's on one earth giving birth at the same time the earth that also exists. I had no idea why I painted this. I gave it to a friend because she loved it so much and decades went by I reached out to see how is my painting doing and sadly she no longer had it for me to see if I can get it back. I believe I left myself and anyone coming across that painting a clue yet I fell back asleep for couple more decades and always looking up at the sky asking Who Am I? Why Am I Here? What Is My Purpose?I get choked up looking at this painting I have some judgement, sadness and anger at myself because at that time a year after this painting I was also reading two books that crossed my path EARTH and Bringers of the Dawn by Barbara Marciniach The Pleiadian Keys. Inside that book I wrote ONLY A FEW WILL UNDERSTAND ARE YOU ONE OF THEM? KEEP AN OPEN MIND BELIEVE what you want and let go of the rest. signed 1998. Why I chose to experience so much darkness I was being guided I am being guided but I cant help but think who would I be and what would I be doing now if I had fully remembered and knew I was already connected and not separate from. What If...........