I have not felt my spark in some time. I do not know whats going on. I use to Tarot and oracle and made a living from it for I love it brings me so much joy. Lately I have felt lifeless ,depressed and lonely even though my understanding has expanded from this me to a part of all that is. All I do is listen to Bashar, and now Elan and all things 5D and shifting there is a sadness within I truly want my waking dream to have color and life and laughter again for lately my waking dream has been of crying and being pulled into family drama and loneliness. I truly want to live and express myself I just feel lost.
Thank you Elan, what has come up is that I have to be someone to matter. Unless I am someone that makes a difference then I am not worthy of an abundant life. I struggled with writing and finishing my book because I don't believe in me because I have failed successfully and everything else that I've done. I truly know that it's a lie and I'm loving the part of myself Believe that to be the truth. My greatest passion has been watching your videos and Bashar's.
The beliefs are that I am not smart enough and that I have a fear that if I was to finish it then I will die and that if I do not finish it soon I will die for not doing anything about my passion that I know wants to birth through me. Fear of Dying and Fear of Birthing my creativity💚💚 I am not planning on leaving. Last night during Yoga I cried and had things come up for me to own and release. I have so much Love and gratitude in being here with all of you while learning about why we are all here and our roles.
I have not felt my spark in some time. I do not know whats going on. I use to Tarot and oracle and made a living from it for I love it brings me so much joy. Lately I have felt lifeless ,depressed and lonely even though my understanding has expanded from this me to a part of all that is. All I do is listen to Bashar, and now Elan and all things 5D and shifting there is a sadness within I truly want my waking dream to have color and life and laughter again for lately my waking dream has been of crying and being pulled into family drama and loneliness. I truly want to live and express myself I just feel lost.
Much Love
Rah